Leanne Harris

A Mother's Tears

I'm so tired. I barely shake anymore, cradling your young head, holding you as I did when you were my baby. Ten thousand emotions have washed over me tonight, waves upon waves of anger, sadness, dread and regret have pounded through my brain, tearing my skull apart. Other thoughts have merely whispered, like cool fleeting breezes, leaving indelible impressions nonetheless. And you, you lie here in my arms like a breathing corpse, and my cries are but a part of drunken dreams. My baby, you are so young to crave alcohol's oblivion. I wish my sober tears could rid you of your sorrow. My child, how is it that I have wronged you? Tell me your pain, speak to me once again, it has been so long since I've known you. I can't make it all better with a hug anymore, but how I've missed you in your distance. I want to shake you, and yet I know you cannot hear. It's getting chilly out here on the porch, and you don't feel a thing. Did you fear I would smell the alcohol, hear you stumble, see guilt or shame play on your drunken face? Or perhaps this home, for you, is so uncomfortable in your adolescence that you prefer to sleep on its fringes. I find I can still lift you, and I carry you to your bed. I do not try to wake you, what's left to say can wait until morning. I only pray, my baby, that my tears will stain your heart, and we can learn to talk again.

 

 

Your Blood is like Coca-Cola

 

How do I love you? Don't let me count the ways.

Your sparkling eyes, your special smile, even your searching soul

Have been described infinitesimally

Until the you I see, I feel, I love

Is lost in the shadows of a thousand starlit nights.

 

Yet within this new permutation of text

Lies an almost original alphabetical array

Denying and escaping the adequate articulation I seek

This complex so newly formed

Yet so anciently derived.

 

Your blood is like Coca-Cola

The same classic compound bound in characteristic design.

Its atomic properties necessitate its consistency

A homogeneous solution of humanity

Drink! Enjoy mankind's universal tie

 

This container of you that I hold in my arms

Contains 4-6 litres of everyday human blood

And yet, systolically it rushes through you

In new uncharted networks of capillaries

Finding, each time, a new path to your heart.

 

The fluid continues its circuitous journey

Replenishing the cells that comprise your being

Each a tiny vessel encasing replica upon replica

Of unique amino acid arrangements

Which give your contents a savory refreshing cool.

 

So within these red-robed linings

The multitudes of bodies and flesh

It is you alone I desire

Because, my remarkable replica container

Only you could taste so strongly of love.

 

 

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